Howl and Rant

The weeks have flown by, and still no project to be seen. It's my own fault - I have little to no ability to multitask the papers and the projects, and so I follow them linearly into a pit of lateness and despair.

I would rather do a paper than try to do this project. This project will be the death of me. I'm not a bad person, am I? I'm not a bad student. I really try! I don't try to get out of things. But this is killing me.

What can I do next to make this happen? I wrote to a local entrepreneur about an hour ago. I asked him if he needed assistance with his own organization or if he had some ideas for volunteer orgs that might need some development help. Maybe something will come of that. But I can't stop there . . . I have to come up with something solid, and I have to come up with something solid NOW.

I need to just sit here with paper and pen and write down every damn idea I can think of and approach five of those groups and take the first one that says yes. I wanted to start writing the Progress Paper for Eric, but I can't even answer the questions, because I DON'T HAVE A PROJECT TO REPORT PROGRESS AGAINST!